Castle slide. 1/31/16

 

We went into this house we were (I don’t remember who I was with) meeting some people and in the front lobby area there was a kitchen area with a little soda machine and coffee maker or something. We went into the back room with some guy and I had a piece of paper I had crumbled and needed to throw into the trash. I asked the guy if he had a trash can and he said there was one in the kitchen and I could go find it myself and do not worry I’m all alone here. I thought ok ill grab a drink while I’m in there. When I walked out of the door there was a long white hallway of rooms. It didn’t look the same as when I went through the first time.  I walked down the hall and looked into a couple of the rooms but they were all empty and white. I was trying to find the front room but I started getting really light headed and then I realized that the rooms were never ending and I thought I was getting drugged so I tried to run back to the room were the people were but I couldn’t remember how to get there. I was staring to pass out and I could feel my real life self sleeping but I was conscious with my eyes open and I could feel my entire body shutting down and freezing while lying in bed. I thought I was dying and my death in my dream was causing my death in real life. Somehow I made myself wake up for a second and then fell back asleep. There was a big party in Denton I was wanting to go to but for some reason I couldn’t go but we (still don’t know who I was with) went to the place that it was supposed to be at called the green house or something. It looked like a frat house in the middle of a lot of dry desert/ country type land and they were setting everything up and there were a bunch of colorful solo cups and burger patties in a big bowl but the party wasn’t for a couple of hours so they wouldn’t let me have a cheeseburger.  The girl was like its ok that you won’t be able to make it to the party we will be sad because they won’t get to know me and be friends or something. I don’t know how but all of a sudden I was at this giant mansion castle being trained to be a princess. It was the day before a big celebration and apparently the day before is a big deal because you pick out your outfits and go through the whole rehearsal. The shoes were really hard to walk in and I had to pick between a stack of fancy dresses. It was another celebration day already or something and I knew I was going to have to pick out a dress and stuff and I was thinking about if I liked this life better not ever being able to go out but having to go to fancy dinners and celebrations all the time. To get to my bedroom there was either a mile long windy staircase that I was terrified of or this ledge that you could walk across but if you fell if would be a mile down drop to the tile on the bottom floor. I kept taking the ledge because the windy stair case scared me too bad. At one point I was trying on outfits again and I was wearing a light pink sparkly shoe with a heel and on the other foot I had a similar light blue shoe but the sparkles were in a different area. I was trying to pick which one I was going to wear and the lady of the house gave me the dresses to try on. I was going to my room but to cross the ledge I sat there thinking about if I would survive if I fell off so I took my shoes off before I walked across. Some evil guy was trying to go to my bathroom but one of the guards popped out and he said he was the doctor in the room because my bathroom had a little medical table. The evil guy was trying to catch me but I ran into another room and started screaming. Some more guards came out and they were trying to shoot the guy but I was always in the middle. I was trying to duck so the evil guy wouldn’t shoot the guards through me. I ran to the spiral staircase and was nervous to go down it. The evil guy winked at me and said something like let’s make this look good and pushed me down it. Turns out when you just slide down it it’s a waterslide type stair case where a blue shield keeps you in the slide and little signs along the way said caution do not exit here. When I got to the bottom this group of tiny cartoon circus animals were packing up cleaning supplies. Apparently they were my secret imaginary friends that were with me from the beginning when I moved in there. They said they guess I’m not the cleaning lady of the castle anymore because I had finished cleaning already so they had to go home. Something else happened where I was sleeping and when I went to the bathroom everything was gross there were two plungers in the toilet and pee still in there and other things were messed up. Later when I went back to bed this gorilla jumped out of the bathroom and ran to the door and jumped around and opened it. Everyone was saying aww did you get stuck in there all night? It was the family’s pet gorilla. Someone was asking me what paper towels I wanted and there were normal white ones with blue decorations on it and there was a roll of hot pink ones with light blue balloons and elephants on it. I said I loved the hot pink ones and I wanted one to take back to my mom too. Later Morgan asked me if I wanted to go to Plano East with her to get some stickers. I wanted some stickers of a panther paw. We went and they were having a high school American Idol. All of the girls going up there to sing kept forgetting the words to the songs which were mostly slow R&B jams. The last girl to go sang kind of shitty but the whole audience knew the song and were singing along and dancing. Everyone was looking at me funny because I wasn’t singing but I had never heard that song before. I thought she might win but then they said and now the main band! I forgot the name but she was one of the members of the band. They were dancing and singing a real performance and morgan said she had seen them once when she was in California. I thought they really sucked and I didn’t like their music.

lucid light switch

( I had recently watched that movie Waking Life and in one scene this guy says to tell if your dreaming or not you should flip a light switch on and off because light levels don't change in dreams)

I was doing something dumb I think stirring a bowl of something when all of a sudden I realized I was dreaming so I thought to myself I should make the most of this time. I looked around and saw a light switch on the wall and remembered the movie. I stared flipping it on and off and I was freaking out because the light level was staying the same. I looked down a hallway right next to the light switch and there were other lights in other rooms all down the hall that were blinking when I would flip the switch but they would all stay on. At the very end of the hallway I saw one room with a light that was actually turning on and off. It scared me so bad I forgot I was dreaming.

bomb 10/17/15

I was walking around in front of a house in a neighborhood of really tall, narrow houses. I saw a possum and some other animal running around in the street and I thought it must be hungry or thirsty. I went inside and walked up a couple of flights of stairs to a kitchen. I opened the fridge but didn't recognize anything in there. I pulled out two soggy strawberries. I went out the back door with the strawberries in a glass dish and reminded myself to bring back the dish later. There were lots of plants around the stone stairs I was running down outside. When I got to the bottom it dropped off into this swimming pool. I set the dish down and jumped into the pool. There were a couple of other people with me but I can't remember what they looked like. One was an older Asian kid I think. I heard a whistle of something coming from the sky getting closer. I thought it was a bomb so I ducked under water and heard a huge explosion. When I came back up I heard screaming and heard another one coming down. I went back underwater and swam all the way to the bottom of the pool and took a deep breath before coming back up. I thought oh its so nice that I can breathe underwater in dreams but I didn't realize I was dreaming. I went back inside and I was helping this girl sort through papers in a box. She said she was trying to figure out who this guy was because he died in the explosions. She said to pull out any information that would be useful. I found a couple of cards and a picture album. I started flipping through photos of some guy and his family. I walked over to the other side of the room and saw Shawn laying on the ground. I ran over to hug him and he said his ears were still messed up from the bomb. I told him I was underwater when it happened. Someone ran up who was supposed to be his dad but it was some tall older Asian man. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and said he was so glad I'm ok but I didn't recognize who he was.

flood 10/13/15

I was driving my moms old giant van and the brakes weren't working very well. I was speeding through a neighborhood trying to stop and I was swerving though people walking their dogs but every dog walker had two of the same breed of dog each that they were walking around. I squeezed past these cars on either side of the road and came across a cul de sac and tried to make a u turn but the steering wheel didn't have powered steering and it barely made it to a full stop. People were talking about the world about to flood and Shawn and my brothers went to Walmart to pick up supplies to build a boat but they said they settled on this blow up floaty boat instead. I wondered how big Noahs boat must have been and I thought it must be impossible to fit all of the animals on. It started flooding and I was on a bus with the floaty. I thought there is no way this floaty is going to be big enough for everything. I was mixing some hair dye at this cabin and I started to put this red color in my hair but this lady came up and started getting mad at me saying she had it just perfect before. I looked at the color I was mixing and it was a dark blue. I couldn't decide where to put it in my hair. I started putting it on this ladys hair and I asked her if she wanted me to color all of her hair.

Escape 10/10/15

I was in a house but somehow I knew I was dreaming. When I went to the back room this really sick pale almost skeletal old lady would walk out and say oh I hope you don't have the disease I have, so I was afraid to go to the section of the house where her room was. I was in the front living area of the house and I saw Shawn. I walked over and was nervous to tell him that this was a dream because I didn't want that to wake myself out of it. I whispered in his ear that he's not going to believe me but this is a dream. Nothing happened but he looked at me funny. I got too excited and started to yell at everyone this is a dream! I woke up and looked around but I was in the same room. I was relieved and thought to myself I guess I'm still dreaming. My phone screen was shattered but I didn't mind because I knew I was dreaming. I started inspecting everything looking at things really close to see if they changed or if I could change them. I wanted to go outside but I remembered I had never left this house. I went back to the area where the old lady slept and she said out saying again oh I hope you don't have the disease I have. I ran past her to where her room was and held my breath. Her and this little man started chasing me. I rolled out of a half open window and started sprinting through a garden. I thought since I am dreaming I should be able to fly. I jumped up and started hovering above the garden and made it over the fence. I started going higher and higher. (usually when I'm flying in a dream its more swimming motions through the air) I would swim a little higher up and then lose confidence and sink back down a little. Somehow I fell and I thought when I land I'm going to die and I wonder if that means I'm going to die in real life or just wake up. I landed back in that house and I knew I was in a lot of trouble and was hoping there was no punishment for escaping. Somehow I escaped again the same way and flew even further this time. I ran in to Morgan a little farther out in a field area. I was telling her it's so cool because were dreaming and we can fly and do whatever we want! I started teaching her how to fly. I was practicing different flying techniques while taking detailed mental notes of exactly how the sky looked and the ground when I was flying and the scenery in the distance. I remember seeing a couple of towns in the horizon and thought about how different both of them were. One of them had a more medieval skyline. I thought why do I always use such ridiculous swimming motions when I fly I should just be able to float/hover anywhere I want to go. Using my mind I floated all the way up in to space but came back down to soar in between the clouds and the upper atmosphere so I could see everything in all directions.

captured by military 10/5/15

I was still in bed and Shawns little brothers friend kept walking by to peek and look at me. When I woke up my shoes and duffel bag were all on the bed with me. and the mattress was sitting next to the bed frame that looked like a pull out couch. I was confused saying I didn't remember throwing all of my stuff on the bed like that. I was wearing pj pants but it was getting hot so I went to the bathroom to change into shorts. One bathroom had a toilet but no shower and the other had a shower but no toilet. I went to the one with no toilet because it was bigger but I thought it would look funny if I also went to the other bathroom becuase I had to pee.
     All of a sudden I was floating a river in Europe with Shawn, my brother Josh, and my grandma. I had a really pretty bracelet on that I kept scraping on the ground so I was about to go put it on shore with our stuff because we weren't very far out. The military started storming in and herding people to these buildings. They were separating the guys from the girls into two separate hallways. There was a glass window between the two hallways so me and Shawn were running along to where we could still see each other. I started crying and screaming when they took us away into other rooms. I told this lady I need to find my family because it's our first day in Europe and they are the only people we know. She got really annoyed with me but started walking me around to find Shawn. I went through all of these rooms packed with young people and didn't see him anywhere. I went to this cafeteria type room and I saw my brother and screamed and ran over to him crying so much and hugging him. I told the lady that this was my little brother and we kept looking for Shawn. We went to sit at a table because the presentation was about to start. Josh asked if I opened the present at the table in front of each plate. I said no and asked him what it was. He said "braaiinnwasshinggg" and the he said just kidding its a tiny book. My grandma was there and she said at least we found each other and can be together right now. I was still crying and said I don't want to die. I told my grandma and my brother that I loved them in case the presentation was really them shooting everyone or something. They started playing a really weird movie with stuffed animals from our childhood playing different world leaders and acting out what is wrong with the world.
     I flashed two months into the future and it was me walking down some beach. I didn't know what had happened for the past two months or how I ended up walking on the beach but when I looked over I saw Shawn. He was naked laying out in the sun hanging on to some bars with a bunch of other people along the beach like some kind of punishment. I walked over and they said he was done and he jumped up and looked at me and said did someone send an angel? I started crying because he was super sweaty and exhausted looking, and his face looked all beat up and he had a tooth missing. He asked why am I crying his favorite thing to do in the morning is to bake in the sun and then jump in the water. He jumped in face down on the ground but didn't get back up. I thought he was just messing with me but he didn't get back up so I went over and pulled his head out of the water. I saw him start to smile so I dropped his head back in the water. He said "hey! what if I was really drowning!" His supervisor started to walk up so I had to leave. I walked a little ways but then started to walk back over because I just wanted to look at him from a distance because I missed him so much. I went back over and he was sitting on the side of the beach with a bunch of other people. I was up on a side ledge so I jumped down right next to him. Everyone was watching some show going on of the other side of the river. All of a sudden everyone started freaking out because the supervisor was walking by. They were asking to see name tags and I didnt have mine so Shawn tried to cover for me and show an extra name tag he had but the lady said no come over here. He gave them his name and I told them mine and they asked me why I didn't have my name tag on me. I started blubbering that I have no idea I never ever leave without my name tag please don't kill me. They said I could get transferred to Florida for something like this and I said oh please no like it was some death wish or something. They said they would just give me a warning punishment instead. I got two tags that said name suspension and listed a punishment. One said get really drunk and watch the wizard of oz and sing somewhere over the rainbow. I cant remember what the other one said. I was walking to the officers room to ask them and I said excuse me can I ask a question about this violation I have and they said no and laughed at me so I said sorry thank you and walked off. I still couldn't remember anything from the past two months not even where my room was. I walked into a random room and these girls were in there and I told them I couldn't remember anything and if they knew what my room number was. One blonde kind of bigger girl said she keeps the list somewhere so I followed her up and down a bunch of ladders but she couldn't find it. We went back to the other girls and they started scrambling saying the general was about to be here. He walked in and everyone stood up. He asked if we had been reading the required reading and we all said yes sir. He wanted us to quote a passage out of it in the voice of the character being read. I think the book was Don Quixote because one girl quoted the part when he sells his soul to the devil or something. I had two other books with me and when he got to me he grabbed them and asked me what these are. I said im sorry sir just recreational reading. I borrowed the girls copy of the book and started flipping through the pages trying to find something I could pretend to quote. He picked up one of the other books I was reading and said ah take note girls now this is the kind of book you should be reading of your free time. I flipped open to a page to quote and it was something about when he proposes to some lady. It just so happened to be the page that the general was also open to in his copy of the book and he said oh I love this quote! I started reading it with a really bad accent and I asked him if I could read it out of his copy instead. I was flipping through the pages in his book but they were so bible thin I couldn't turn to the page before. All of a sudden an alarm started sounding and he said he needs to take the book and leave. I was praying thank you that I somehow didn't have to read the quote. Minutes later a loud bang sounded from upstairs. I noticed the top bunk beds were only about a foot or two away from the ceiling and I was wondering what bed I have in my room. I thought it was the sound of someone getting shot and I started saying I don't want to die.
     All of a sudden I was two months back in time where it all started. A narrator in the sky said something like and here is where it began and now our character will solve a few missing pieces about what has happened. Everyone was waiting in line to check in and get uniforms. One officer was splashing water on peoples faces out of a little squirt tube as they walked by. Another was checking peoples eyes and if they were brown they would zap them and but permanent blue contacts on them. If they had brown hair they would zap it and change it to blonde. The girls were given light blue striped shirt and short skirt. I was in the river again and we were doing some kind of exercise. The supervisors were walking by again and everyone stood to attention and raised there arm to say hello. One guy tried to pretend like he got sucked underwater and swim away but the supervisors had a guard dog and a shark on a leash following him. They said come back or we will release these animals on you. He kept swimming so they set the animals free and they caught him and ripped him to shreds. I was walking back to my building but I still couldn't remember my room number. I walked into a room and went up a ladder and saw Shawn. He didn't see me but I saw him reading a book. This creepy old lady with no shirt on and really saggy pointy boobs was laying on a bed talking to him. I walked back down the ladder and sat on a bed with two girls and started asking them questions. I said I still cant remember anything. I don't even know what my room number is. I looked in a mirror and I had blonde hair and the stripey outfit on but my eyes were still brown. I asked if I was allowed to wear these shoes and I looked and I was wearing Shawn's converse. I felt sad inside because I knew I was only wearing them because I missed him. I asked how long the training lasts and they said about 6 months. I was thinking we were supposed to go back to America long before that. I was thinking about my grandma and how I guessed it would be good for her to get out of her comfort zone and meet other people from around the world. They said they felt bad for the old people because once they are past about 60 years old they just stop feeding them. I started freaking out crying saying that my grandma is here too they cant do that! I asked if there was no way to escape or check on people or anything!? They said no and I saw visions on really high walls with spikes and swarming with cockroaches. I asked them what their names were and the first girl told them but the second girl I recognized as the one I met in the future who was trying to help me find what my room number was. I asked her if it was Taylor and she said no its Gabrielle and showed me her name tag. One of us said we would meet each other again in a couple of months.

because thats how you get ants 10/4/15

Tim came over to hang out with me and Shawn and he started going through my pictures on my phone to see some of the pictures we took in Europe. I was worried that he was going to find a naked picture of me or something and my dress started falling off. We got to a picture of us floating some river in Wales. All of a sudden we were actually there and we were waiting to get on the tubes to float. Somehow Tim was there too but he didn't have a floaty since he wasn't originally in the picture. He kept saying it was only 15 dollars to get a tube but I kept trying to tell him it was euros. We had our phones with us because Shawn was taking a video and pictures but I said we should leave them so they don't get wet. He got out to put the stuff away but I realized I still had all of my clothes on. Tim was standing way to close to me so I got out and walked over to where the lockers and changing rooms were. I was trying to stuff my purse in a locker but it was too big. The jacket I was wearing got stuck in my swimsuit bottoms so I had to pull it out. This girl started throwing my stuff in the locker on the ground and I realized you had to have a key for them and buy it from the vending machine. I told her to hold on let me get my stuff out don't just throw it on the ground. I realized though that it was 50 pence to get a key. All of my stuff kept falling all over the ground and I was trying to pick it all up. I didn't think I had any euros left because we had just walked in from a picture but then I thought about how everything in the past when the picture was actually taken would change now that Tim was there and it wasn't the same as the first time. I dropped my jewelry under a table and was trying to pick it up. I found another ring that wasn't mine but I was going to keep it. I kept having to squeeze by this lady and when I crawled back out from under the table I was surprised I got out because it was such a small space. Some how I was in a hotel with Shawn and he told me to look at this picture on his phone and I said which one and he said it just brings back such memories. I started scrolling through but I didn't recognize any of the pictures I was seeing of me. There were some where I was trying on different colored wigs and others of my by a pool. A video started playing and it was me in some guys hotel room with Morgan and we were really drunk. We were pouring this green goop stuff on ourselves and the were pouring buckets of alcohol onto us. They were also dumping buckets of alcohol off of the balcony on to drunk girls down at the pool. The video kept going and these guys were making us do weirdly sexual things like fitting condoms of water into our mouth or sitting on their laps or something. There was one girl already passed out on the floor. They were all taking our clothes off and the video stopped. I was trying to find it again to show Shawn and I realized I was in the same room that everything had happened. I asked Morgan where Shawn went and she said she didn't know. I found him sitting on the couch and I was asking him when he took this video but I couldn't find it again. I couldn't remember if I had just found it on his phone or my phone. I was scrolling through the videos on his phone and there was one of a bunch of people on the beach. This girl was jumping up and down and her boobs were really bouncy. She fell over and I pulled her shirt off. All of these people at the beach were watching. Morgan screamed and I looked up and there was beer all over her wall. Shawn said oh no the ants are getting in. I looked and there were ants crawling all over her wall drinking the beer. I felt like I got bit a bunch of times and I started feeling them crawling in my hair. I jumped up and started scratching my head trying to shake them out of my hair.