ghost in the kitchen 8/21/15

(staying with a friend in San Antonio)

I woke up and had to go to the bathroom but he said don’t use that one there is water all over the floor so use the kitchen bathrooms. There were three toilets out in the open in the kitchen and all of these people started showing up. I didn’t want to just use the kitchen toilets out in the open so I was waiting until I saw someone else doing it first. There was a ghost moving things around in the kitchen. We were driving on the highway and josh was driving really fast. I kept thinking we were going to get pulled over.

dream army

(A while back a kept having the same dream with the same people that I was in training for a dream army. I would always know I was dreaming and was having to take all of these tests)

I was in a classroom taking a series of tests that I was breezing through. I knew the ship that was leaving to the mail dream station was about to leave. I got to full of myself and started showing off. I made an energy explosion happen in the hall with my mind. Everyone got mad and I started to loose dream consciousness.

I was doing flying training with the same group of people I had been training with. I wasn't following the rules and I flew too high. I ran into a tree and fell. I got the breath knocked out of me and it hurt so bad. I kept thinking I didn't know you could experience so much physical pain in a dream.

some lucid dreams I can remember

I was laying by a fence next to a horse ranch and all of these horses were running by. I went into this house across the field and this lady was waiting for me. I knew I was dreaming because I recognized her somehow. Her ranch hands kept coming in and giving me disapproving looks. I asked if I could stay and learn her secrets. She said only if I give her my shoes. I started to get sucked out of the dream but I kept trying to concentrate so hard so stay there.

It was thanksgiving and I knew I was dreaming and I kept running around outside doing ridiculous things because I knew I wouldn't get caught like running around with my shirt off. I went into a church and drank all the communion grape juice. Morgans parents came to visit our apartment but we were living in an attic. I was helping my mom make thanksgiving dinner. Someone came up to me and said this is how your going to use this opportunity? I felt kind of guilty and was walking around looking at every detail of everything. The texture of the buildings kept changing the closer I would look. I looked at some words on the refrigerator to see if I could actually read in dreams and I could but the words kept changing. This dream lasted for a day and a half and I don't remember now everything that happened but that was the longest dream I've ever had. (I was only asleep for about 45 minutes)

I was in the desert somewhere and I came across this group of gypsies that I knew very well somehow. I knew I was dreaming and they were trying to teach me things about dream stars. They felt like family and I didn't want to leave. We were all staying in this cabin. I was studying some scrolls with pictures of the sky with someone.

I walked into a room full of people chanting. I felt very in control and I could see what everyone was thinking. I knew I was in a dream but I recognized everyone in the room. I knew that they were all demons praying for the leader to show up and give them guidance. I remembered that I was the leader.

(I always end up in a lot of different big houses. Every time I realize I'm dreaming I know that I need to go to the basement and in a closet there will be a secret passage that leads to another room or another dimension. This has happened about 20-30 times. Every time I go into the secret passage there is a different scenario that plays out.)

I was at a party in a house and I knew I was dreaming. I kept trying to go outside but I was feeling so dizzy. I was trying to find Morgan to tell her we are dreaming but I kept falling over and couldn't make it outside. I noticed in the corner someone who did not belong there. He was wearing a lab coat and was looking at me and I looked at my arm and there was a hole in it where someone gave me a shot. I looked at him and he had a syringe in his hand.
(The next day I told Morgan about that dream and she said she had the same dream about the same party we even described the house in detail. She also knew she was dreaming and was in another room. She said something about a guy that didn't belong there either.

stuck in a lucid dream

There have been a few occasions where I have got stuck in a lucid dream and can't wake myself up. Just gonna go back to a couple that I can remember.



I can only barely remember now but there was one where I was in a kindergarten school building and I was in a back room that was more like a lab/ operation room. There was a miniature monkey running around and I realized I must be dreaming. Somehow I kept ending up on the operation table and thinking how can I wake myself up. I kept studying the details of the room to reassure myself that I was actually dreaming. Every time I would try to wake myself up either it wouldn't work, or I would end up back on the operation table. This happened for what seemed like hours. All of a sudden I was in a sunglasses shop trying to pick out a pair of glasses. I kept trying to tell people that this is really a dream and none of this is real. These two guys in sunglasses grabbed me and started dragging me through either a bus station or an airport.

I was in a mall stuck in this roller coaster ride that resembled a gerbil ball that was falling. I knew I was dreaming and I thought for sure when the ball hits the ground it will wake me up. It didn't. I was laying there in so much pain thinking I know this is a dream why can't I wake up.

(This one I was staying in a hotel in England with my boyfriend Shawn and it was more being stuck in reoccurring waking dreams)

We were in the hotel room laying in bed and all of these kittens started coming out of this closet in the wall that I knew wasn't there in real life and I kept saying see I told you this place is really haunted. Then I was outside in the back next to a tree stump and David was was holding an axe and there were a few other people there. They all started talking about some poem that I supposedly knew and they all started saying it out loud.  As they were saying it I was remembering it. It was something about the axe and the sky are the same color as my head, a shade of red and shes already dead. Then I remembered I was already dead and I woke up into another dream where me and Shawn were in an art museum. I looked up at a painting and was asking the desk guy what it was and he said it was a painting of the 24 horsemen and that I should know already. That's when I remembered I should know because I'm already dead. I fell to the ground in shock and woke up into another dream where I was laying in bed with Shawn in the same hotel room trying to tell him that we were in a dream and that I'm stuck and I can't get out. He didn't believe me and he started to get mad. He drug the bed out of the hotel room wit me still on it to the back of the hotel and I was trying to tell him of course this is a dream it wouldn't make since to be doing that in real life. Hyde runs up and hops in a big truck with some lady that it staring at me and I'm trying to stop it but I can't and I realize its because I'm dead. Then I woke up again in the bed and were watching some porn on TV and I realize that they are actually dead which reminded me that I'm dead too and I woke up again into another dream. This happened about 5 or 6 more times with different similar scenarios that I can't really remember. The last dream loop I got stuck in when I realized I was dead I was outside the back of the hotel with Shawn and I started floating away to towards the sky. I started crying and I was holding his hand and I didn't want to let go because I didn't want to leave him yet. I started singing Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers and floating off into the sky. I got up into the clouds and looked around the earth. Facing the back of the hotel to my left was beautiful hills and sunshine and rainbows. To my right was darkness and shadows and spooky forest. I started evil laughing and felt really powerful. I started getting sucked over to the darkness the more powerful I felt.

(When I finally actually woke up I woke up in a panic breathing heavily and already crying. Shawn told me that he also had a similar lucid dream about his dead friend that night)

drove off a cliff 8/20/15

I walked up to a cabin I was staying in with Morgan and a cop car was there. We walked up and he was talking to the neighbors. I walked inside and I was looking in every room for intruders. I thought this reminds me of when I'm searching a place for zombies. I saw from third person point of view myself with super sticky shoes walking on the wall above the doors going to each one and peeking into a row of rooms that were lined up like jail cells. I thought oh I should invent those shoes they would really come in handy.

I was driving down a windy road with Shawn and there was a turn in the road that had been flooded. I yelled watch out for that road that's underwater! He swerved and went through a fence on the side of the road that was blocking the edge of a cliff side. It was about a five hundred foot drop and the whole way down I kept screaming I don't want to die yet I'm sorry I love you I love you I love you!! We hit the ground  which was really a swamp and it hurt really bad. Shawn was reaching for something out of the window and got sucked into the mud. I was screaming trying to get out of the truck and get my phone out to call 911. I dragged him to a rock on the side of the field and was trying to use my phone but of course the numbers were in the wrong places and I couldn't see them very well. Somehow I called my grandma but she couldn't hear anything. I noticed I wasn't on my phone anymore but I was holding my computer mouse in my hand. I thought she must not be able to hear me because I don't have any speakers connected. I was screaming help and all she said was do you need us to pray for you tonight? I noticed there was a college not to far from where we were laying so I was screaming help at them as loud as I could. Two girls came over just as I saw an ambulance pull up to where we fell off the cliff up the mountain. I thought I guess my phone call did work. They helped us over and one girl was saying they should leave soon so they will get home by 2:00. I decided while I was there I would go to some classes. It was a private school and I didn't know the rules so during one lecture I was sitting up on a ledge in the classroom with a couple of trouble makers when we were supposed to be sitting in the desks. It was lunch time so I went to the cafeteria with Shawn and my grandma. She got this huge catfish sandwich and couldn't finish it so I made another sandwich out of it and ate half of it. We left in a big line and a couple of people went a different way. I was trying to follow the group but I got lost going with the people taking a short cut. They all hopped to the next building through the windows. I thought it was to far of a jump and I wasn't going to make it. I tried hanging on to this rope to swing across but it got stuck around my neck and I couldn't move. Someone held me while they helped me get the rope off and I went into the window. We were in a kitchen and someone handed this girl an outkast cd. I think they were slowly stealing cds from the library because it was all of their last years there. The group walked in with the old teacher and me and this girl hid under a blanket because everyone was getting in trouble for not staying with the group. She looked under the blanket and asked the girl what her name was. She said my name out loud because she already knew it. We went into this classroom and everyone was sitting down. I sat next to this girl and she got mad at me for something so I tried to give her the other half of my sandwich but she threw it in the trash. That really hurt my feelings because I was actually going to eat that sandwich but I was trying to be nice. I moved to the back of the classroom and sat with some stoner type people. All of a sudden I was in my moms old kitchen making bbq sandwiches. Someone got mad that I was putting cheese on all of them.

guns 8/19/15

There was a lizard riding on a snake. They were both the same size and about 6 inches long. They didn't start chasing me until I started to run away from them. I ran into the pantry at my parents old house with Morgan and I was yelling shut the door but she didn't know why so she didn't shut it in time. They were faster than me so when I ran into the garage they caught up and I couldn't tell if they bit me or not.

I was trying to get ready for 80's night in this big house that I think was grandpa Lopez's. I kept trying to put on make up but there was either no lighting or the mirror was dirty and people kept moving it saying why don't you try over here? I told my grandma 5 minutes before I would be ready but everything kept going wrong and people were yelling at me and rushing me. I couldn't find my hair clip so Anita let me borrow hers. It was a clip that hung down on a string that had black beads with little skulls on them. I was trying to use this eyebrow brush but when I looked in the mirror my eyebrows were all fucked up and half of them were missing so I was trying to draw them in and brush them out. Someone asked about my daughter and all of a sudden I was a queen in a castle with a daughter that I never wanted to see that was about 16 or 17 years old. I asked everyone how she was doing and Paul said he would do her and I smacked him in the face. I went outside to snow covered mountains with two other girls with backpacks on. We were hiding in the snow on the side of one of the hills waiting for a helicopter but someone jumped on it before we could. As he was flying away he got shot in the chest with an arrow and I was thinking I'm glad we didn't get on there. Then everyone was running around with guns and it was a war and people were killing each other everywhere for fun. Paul and his friends all had guns and they were excited to go shoot up some dorm rooms. I got so pissed and I was trying to tell him there is a difference when you go beat up people and when your actually taking someones life. I was crying begging him not to kill anyone.

spirit world 8/18/15

I was in the hallway of Candices apartment and a ghost started slamming doors and trying to pull me and Shawn away from each other. I was being pulled to the wall and was then being help up on the wall while i'm screaming trying to get down. Shawn was screaming being held in place saying something about something going up his spine. A baby gate at the top of the stairs closed and locked. I crawled down from the wall and grabbed on to Shawn and started screaming "I'm sorry God I know your real that's whats so scary that no one else believes so were the only ones getting fucked with!" (Then I woke up)

I was trying to drive home from school in the snow and I had a stick shift car and I slid into this big truck. I didn't know whose truck it was and I didn't have any paper so I just left. I was at home trying to make this cashew lentil casserole and waiting for dinner guests to show up. I kept messing up the food by putting too many eggs in and forgetting to put it in the oven. Someone called and asked for the address and if he needed to bring any side dishes. A couple of girls showed up and I was trying to clean off the table but more stuff kept piling up on it. The guy showed up and he said everyone is going to the pool down the street. I said I had just put dinner in the oven.