Wednesday, September 30, 2015

tied game 9/30/15

I was house sitting for Shawns sister with my mom. They had a huge refrigerator full of beer so I got my mom a pineapple smirnoff ice and I got myself some dark craft beer. We were watching TV and I went to the food refrigerator and when I looked inside I found their baby in the crisper drawer. I told the sister and she was freaking out saying she had only put her in there for a minute because she was too hot but there was an ice layer covering the baby that we had to break off. Then I was walking around a college on the phone with my dad trying to meet up with him while hiding from the professors because I wasn't in school anymore and if they saw me they would try to make me go to class. I was trying to go across a ladder bridge to get to the other side of the building but when I got half way across I was too scared to go the rest of the way because I was afraid of heights and I could see down through the bridge. I didn't notice that there had been another solid wood bridge on the other side of the room but I couldn't make it back on the bridge and I was trying to hand my phone over to someone so I could use both hands to crawl back. I was hanging out with my brother and Shawn and my brother kept saying he wanted to smoke a welcome home joint with us and he was so excited that when we said we couldn't because we were looking for a job his feelings got really hurt. We were hanging out in a pool and my brother was looking at Shawn to see if he had any pot tattoos too because he was so proud that he just got a new one. I looked and my brother had a weed plant tattoo on his chest and three black cross tattoos. Shawn said something about how he doesn't have a tattoo to single him out like that or something and I could tell it hurt my brothers feelings. All of a sudden I was with someone strapped on to a flock of birds that were flying in a V shape in the sky. We were flying all over the place and I could see everything but I was kind of nervous because I didn't want to let go of the straps I was hanging on to. I was at this football game and the teams tied but when they went in to over time they started procrastinating starting the game back up. First they played a video of some girls birthday. Then they zoomed in on a guy singing a song in the crowd and the whole stadium started singing with him. I looked around and saw these two girls there holding cakes in the shape of numbers of two of the players. I assumed that they were their boyfriends and they had died somehow so they were cakes of remembrance. They kept playing different things on the big screen and all of these people started running on to the field. I was waiting for them to bring out the cute puppies or kitties as a distraction. I was asking Shawn why they were holding back the game like this and he said maybe it was so these teams can play each other again in the playoffs. I said aren't the people at home watching this game really confused as to why it just stopped? Are they getting to see everything there doing right now or are they just playing commercials for them?

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

19th century devil 9/29/15

I went camping with a few people but it was one of the guys that was with us bachelor party. I had some black cherry vodka and Morgan and Heidi couldn't drink it because they kept throwing it up so I had to drink the whole bottle by myself. My family showed up in the morning and we were trying to find a place to camp. It turned into a pool party in a cabin and everyone one from Denton was there. I tried to say hi to L but she ignored me. Then minutes later she came up and gave me a big hug. Some guy was asking me why the guy had his bachelor party there last night and I told him not everyone can afford the strip club. I said the guy wanted to save his money to get fucked up at the honey moon but the guy I was talking to just shook his head. I was sitting in a pool chair by the pool and Jaiden ran over but he knocked over a kids basketball hoop that was filled with fruit. All of the fruit fell into the pool. He grabbed me and said he wanted this to be real so bad there no way it can be. I looked at him and touched his hair and knew it couldn't be real because he cut his hair and I jumped into the pool to grab the fruit. I picked up three apples but couldn't get the orange or the plum. I walked to where the bunk beds were and this little alien that was kind of grasshopper shaped came up and took the form of a little man. He asked if he could read his newspaper in the room and I told him check out was at 11 so he can stay until we have to leave but asked him what his get away plan was because he was not supposed to be there. He pointed at the ceiling and there was a board he could move to get out that way. I looked outside the window and there was a group of about 20 of the little grasshopper aliens in a field with a bunch of people surrounding them and praying it looked like to them. All of a sudden this strange white crystal looking thing zapped all of the people and they died. The aliens started feeding off of the dead people. I saw someone with Jaidens short hair with a pink streak in it in the pile of dead people and thought a few minutes ago in the pool was the last time I ever saw him alive.
     I was at a house and there was a concert/ festival going on outside. Shawn and his friends were already out there so I was trying to hurry and find something to wear. I wanted to look really cool in case I saw someone I knew. Everything looked really dorky and I kept changing. I put on this white trash bag t-shirt that had a funny face on it but no one noticed the funny face they just noticed that it was a trash bag so I was trying to take it off but it got stuck. I asked this big lesbian if she wanted to take my shirt off because I was stuck and she got really excited and said yes. When I finally went outside the whole crowd was gone. I saw a few people towards the back of where the concert grounds were so I walked over. There was a group of about 3 or 4 people sitting on the ground meditating or praying so the other group of rough looking misfits told me to be quiet. I asked them what happened to the party and I opened a beer. Music started playing again and people started to show up again. I said yay after party but I went inside to look for my friends. When I was inside I started looking though different rooms but the rooms were disappearing. I would open a door and there would be just a wall or and empty room. I remembered that Satan messes with people who are spiritual or are close to God.  A song popped into my head and I sang it out loud but I cant remember it now. It was something about the closer you are to him that's when the trouble begins but when you get far your nothing and don't matter anymore or something I don't know. I was running to the living room of the house where I knew my family and things were. I was trying to find a notebook to write down my song before everything disappeared or was changed. I ran into the room where my family was talking to this man with a top hat that looked at me directly in the eyes and I knew it was him that was changing everything. Everything was very 19th century looking even the ladies were wearing the poofy dresses and such. I grabbed what I thought was a notebook but it was my personal address book. I thought if I keep it in my hand then it wont get changed and I will have a record of who I actually knew and who they were. I looked down at a hymn on the piano that said "a day in a life in heaven" but when I blinked it had changed to "an eternity in hell" I ran to the gift shop on the other side of the room but things were disappearing left and right. I thought I could catch him if I couldn't find a note book by saying what kind of gift shop doesn't have notebooks he is obviously making things disappear. At that point someone handed me a notebook but I forgot why I needed it because out of the back door I saw it was flooding a blood red brownish color. There was an ocean that color in the distance.
     I was at a dinner table with some people still in 19th century and I was making a pot lock breakfast with eggs with vegetables in them, rice and beans mush, I asked everyone if they wanted pancakes and bacon and they said yes. I said I was trying to use all of the left over food from a party my family had that morning. Some kid at the table that looked like Danikan had put all of the eggs in a pan but they were uneven so I was annoyed. The eggs were all piled up on top of each other so they were growing really tall so I shook them around and they evened out on the pan to make fried eggs but they were not spaced out right. I was trying to get a bacon pan ready but there was too much grease in the pan so I was trying to dump half of it out in another pan. The bacon I had was in the shape and size of sun dresses. I was upset that I could only fit three on the pan at a time but then I was confused as to why they were bacon dresses and then they were regular bacons again. My aunt walked in and was talking to my mom about her financial situation. She told her she must have been upset when I made all of the food because she can't afford it. My mom said she could when my aunt was living there. My aunt said well I'm back but I don't think my mom wanted her to be. My dad looked outside and said oh no hes back and asked me if I remembered the blank license plates. I remembered the man from earlier had blank license plates too. He said he thinks that the guy across the street is also in front of the house. I looked and it was this mime that was wearing a striped outfit but the stripes were orange and green and black. He said that he had heard a lady scream and a dog barking in the front of the house and he thought it was at that guy. I looked on the kitchen buffet table and there was an orange, green, and black striped outfit laying there. I started getting nervous and looked outside and saw an ocean in the background and remembered the flood and saw a vision of an orange and red storm in the clouds with a black eye in the center. Some girl at the table said at least hes pretty cute. Then someone else said no the cutest guy was Jonny Depp and I looked at her funny because I knew we were in the 19th century and Jonny Depp was supposed to be in the future. I thought what if he was a vampire and had really been alive in this time too.

Monday, September 28, 2015

babies. drama. 9/27/15

I had a baby but forgot about it and it had been staying at Shawns parents house for a year. When his mom confronted me about when am I going to have time for my kid I couldn't even remember his name. Shawn kept calling him Reginald or something but I remembered it was Nikola. I got defensive and said she can't have my baby and hes going to live with me now. A bunch of people started cheering like I was on an episode of Maury. When she gave me the baby it was as big as my hand. He has super bright blue eyes. I kept trying to be really careful with him because he was so tiny. I fell asleep in a room in a house and when I woke up I heard Shawn say he cant get it up and I walked in on him at a computer and I thought he meant he couldn't get his dick up because he was watching porn or something but he said he couldn't get the webpage up and working. I was looking around for the baby but the crib was empty. I was pregnant again with another baby but this one was a surrogate black baby. My boobs hurt really bad because I hadn't breast fed the first kid in a year and I guess I thought all of the milk was built up since then. I took the first baby and tried to breast feed him but it squirted out so hard the baby kept throwing up. I kept squeezing bubbles of milk out and it was really gross. I asked Shawns mom if the baby was too old to feed like that and she said no but I didn't know how old he was. She said he was three now but he was still only as big as my hand.
    All of a sudden I was on a really dramatic episode of Degrassi and we were all swimming in a swimming pool. The couple whose baby I was carrying was there and I could tell they weren't together anymore. The girl came over and started kicking me in the stomach and I kept screaming please let me keep my baby please let me keep my baby. I was crying and trying not to drown in the pool and I flopped up on the side of the pool and it was really dramatic. The whole cast of the show was there and one dorky guy came up with a weird mustache and no deodorant and a Hawaiian shirt on. I asked him why he was dressed like that and he said because he thought it would impress me when he asks me to marry him. I asked him why I thought that would be impressive and I looked at my armpits and they weren't shaved and I looked like a hippie so I guess that's how he got that impression. All of a sudden I was at his house and his family was making a vegetarian dinner and salad because they thought I would like it.  

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Jealous in Germany 9/26/15

I was waiting for Shawn to get home from work and I fell asleep on the couch. When I woke up it was about 7:30 pm. He got home and I asked him if he just got off but he said he had been off work since 2:30 but had gone to a co-workers house afterwards and took some ecstasy. I asked him who all was over there and if he brought any back. He said yes but he looked like Baker now.  I was still mad for some reason. I said forget this I'm leaving. I went to grab a bag of clothes and told him I would come back to get the rest of my stuff sometime next week. I left and then I was in a small town in the middle of nowhere. I think it was a family thing and I asked Morgan if she wanted to go get a beer from the town bar. I went to the bar and there were a few sad old people there. I ordered a huge mug of beer and sat down and I noticed uncle John same in and sat down at the bar. Morgan said she had to go change real quick but she never came back so I finished my beer and left. I finally found her down the street and she said she forgot because she was dealing with stuff with her suitcase. I went to a different more crowded bar and was getting a drink with Heidi. I had another big beer and was trying to go down this ladder into another bar that had blue lights and jazz music but I was really scared to go down the ladder with a beer in my hand. Somehow I made it down there and everyone was wearing fancy clothes and white dresses. I fit in because I was wearing a poofy white dress. There was no seating so I said I would sit at the bar. I was eating a plate of food when I was trying to leave and I put it on the floor next to some other dirty dishes.
    I was in Germany and I was staying with Shawn with an Irish guy and another guy and we were testing bicycles to see which one we wanted to use. I was having a hard time riding my bike because it was too big and the wheels weren't working very well. We were riding around the town but I kept losing everyone. Shawn called Jeremy and he said he could be over in a few minutes because he was in the area. For some reason he said we were in New York even though I knew we were still in Germany. We stopped at this outdoor picnic table bar and there was this really pretty blonde girl that was hitting on Shawn. I wasn't worried but then she started being rude to me. He noticed and said oh no you don't mess with Romeo and Juliet and kind of started ignoring her. She kept flirting though and I guess got though to him because they went over to an arcade machine which was a faded Baulders Gate game. They were laughing and poking each other and this little blonde girl kept trying to sit in my lap. I asked her where her mom was and she pointed at the girl that was with Shawn. I noticed she had two other kids with her. I brought her other kid to her and I told Shawn have fun with that and I got on my bike and left. I was planning on meeting back up with them later but my phone died and I didn't have my charger so I couldn't find any one. The next morning no one was home yet so I left and it was snowing and icing and I was roller skating. I started trying to find everyone but I couldn't.

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

sex slave 9/23/15

I was sitting in a room full of people that were sitting in chairs asleep and these aliens I can't remember what they looked like or if I could even see them but they were doing something to our brains and our dreams and I remembered what Jacob said about certain aliens feed off fear so I kept sending thought messages around the room saying I love you to every alien and sending feelings of peace to cover the room.

I was laying in bed with Shawn, and Thomas came by and asked us if we had seen this cartoon movie about a black nazi named Ari Guospo... I can't remember how it was spelled but it looked something like that. I wanted to stay up and watch it but Shawn was going to sleep and I got frustrated because I wasn't tiered.

I was in France again and we had rented a car for a few days. We were hanging out with Adrian and we were getting ready to fly back to America. We were walking and had to go up this street that was on a huge hill. Adrian asked if it would be easier to ride bikes up the hill. I remembered that we had rented that car and had to take it back anyways. We were going to a hotel where we would go to the airport from. Adrian was riding with us and I asked him how he was going to get back to his house? I thought well then he can take the car back on the way home. We got to the hotel and there were a lot of people waiting for us, some family and people from my old church. We were trying to pack up and I was worried about what time we needed to go to the airport. There were two groups of people flying back one was me and Shawn and the other was my brother Josh and some of his friends. His plane left later in the day so they weren't so worried about packing and had just started making dinner. I didn't know if the plane left at 7 or 9 and I was having a really hard time looking it up. I saw two shot glasses in the kitchen and Shawn was walking out so I asked him if he had taken a shot. He said yes and I said why wasn't I invited! I asked him who he took a shot with because this other girl from church was also in the kitchen so I got kind of jealous. I got distracted by this shelf in one of the bedrooms with a bunch of tiny bottles of oil. I was looking for lavender or tea tree but there were only things I've never heard of. I had a big bag of candy and wanted to take it on the plane with me but I remembered I can't take food on it so I wanted to dump it in one of the suitcases so I could check it through.
     I was back at my parents old house and I was still packing but I was confused as to why I needed to go get on the plane for 20 hours when I was already home. I was wearing a dress and I decided to pack the most comfortable outfit I own for the plane ride. I was searching through a big pile of my clothes.
     I was at an AFI concert with Morgan and we were sitting right next to the guy from type o negative and we were both scooting closer trying to nonchalantly hit on him. The band had just started playing and I was worried because it was already 8:00 and I had to be at the airport at 9:00. Somehow I had scooted too close to him to where it was really obvious. He said hows it going and I almost passed out. The scene jumped to a week later where I was having a flashback to a facebook message conversation that we had where he had sent me a picture of his awesome expensive gothic house and I said something really stupid back like nice scary face statues or something. I was in his house and he was saying he was sick and going to sleep. Immediately I thought oh man hes one of these guys that just pretends to be sick all of the time and as he was walking away I noticed how fat he was getting. He asked his butler if he was going to go to sleep early too and I thought oh man and hes gay and I didn't even notice. The butler sounded irritated when he said no he wants to stay up later this time. He asked me and I said no I'm not sleepy yet and he got mad and came back out to sit on his giant chair that might have been a throne. His house was gorgeous with all kinds of gothic architecture and statues and trinkets. Anyways so he called me over to his chair and snapped his fingers for the butler to bring him a drink and I noticed I was wearing a really goofy ugly white maid outfit with poofy sleeves, not even a sexy maid outfit. I started making out with the butler because I guess the guy liked watching that or something. He called me over and forced me to sit in his lap. He pulled out his dick and it was really funny because it was triangle shaped but he started playing with me and then just left. I was so mad I said what the fuck I'm leaving you can't just leave me hanging like that. He said that's what I get for not being a good enough servant he just wanted to leave it there for later. I left and I was worried that he was going to try to stop me but he didn't. Shawn picked me up and asked if I was ready to go to the airport. I was laughing on the way trying to tell him about the triangle shaped penis but he said he didn't want to know about things like that. There was a huge line of parked cars on the service road that seemed like they were waiting in traffic but no one was in them. I said I needed to take care of something so I started masturbating. I accidentally squirted all over his car so much I was afraid I got my comfy clothes for the airport wet. 

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

bugs 9/22/2015

I woke up in my bed at my old house when I was a kid and got up to go to the bathroom. I walked in and couldn't turn on the light. I saw a few cockroaches run by and when I looked closer I noticed that there were thousands of them in all sizes. I screamed and ran to my parents room and they screamed and told me to hold on so they could put some clothes on. They ran out there and said there are not roaches everywhere and then they looked closer and noticed that there were. My dad kept trying to kill them all but there were two many. I was trying to crawl up on a bed but they were spreading everywhere. I asked mom why does she not just vacuum them all up.

I was in a tall windy tower with stair cases that wrapped around for 7 or 8 stories. I accidentally went to far and ended up on the top story. I looked back down the windy staircase and realized how scared of heights and the stairs I was. I decided to crawl back down the stairs but as soon as I got on my hands and knees I noticed all of these cobwebs. I had a wooden stick with me and I was trying to clear a path when I noticed all of these spiders in all sizes. They were everywhere all of a sudden and some of them were almost a foot long.

I was at a family event and I was staying in a room with some of my cousins and there was not much space so we had to make a bed out of the kitchen table. I had a coloring book and was annoyed that one of my cousins was watching TV really loud. The table bed got messed up and we were trying to put the table cloth back on which was cut into thin strips but there weren't enough strips to recover the table. My aunt came in and said sorry there was not enough space for everyone. We went to float the river the next day but I brought a tiny bag of coke and a straw. We were in the river and a cop came up searching people. I threw the bag and the straw in a pool filter and was watching it to make sure I could catch it again later. He searched us and couldn't find anything. When all of the stuff in the filter came out of what looked like an airport security check I grabbed the little bag and stuck it in my swimsuit bottoms. I saw my cousin hide the other evidence for me and I thought it was really sad and sweet that she would do that. We were trying to leave the river park and we got stopped by another security guy. He checked our bags and didn't find anything except when I looked at my bag it was a double decker clutch purse with a mini garden on top and it looked like weed but it was just cooking herbs. When they checked this other kid we were with he didn't have his immigrant papers on him so I told my mom that we need to leave now. I said just go hurry! She said you do have something on you don't you. I said shh lets just go. She asked if it was the sweet and salty kind. I said yes now lets get to the van. We saw a few cops running by when we were walking to the car-park. We got in this huge RV van and about 7 cousins were with us. I said where am I going to sit what if they search the vehicle. I sat in the back.

I was at a big house and someone was upset that these people didn't have "the present" ready yet. These people in really funny looking servants costumes started cleaning up a bunch of stuff and moving stuff in. My mom came in and asked me if I had seen my new room yet. I walked into this room and it was huge it had a fireplace and bookshelves and huge closets and a dressing room with a really big mirror. I went into the dressing room and was trying to turn on the lights but there were so many switches that were turning on all kinds of lights in there. I went to this closet in the back of the room and it was really another room where this lady and her two kids were sleeping on bunk beds. My mom said I'm lucky to get this room because I was born on the 13th and this was room 13. (In real life I'm not born on the 13th) There was a strange closet with a bunch of hangers hanging from the ceiling with little ribbons hanging off of them. I went to the main room and I knew I wasn't supposed to but I took one poof of weed. I noticed a concert going on outside and everyone was out there dancing. I wanted to dance too and I noticed Jaiden standing in the window watching the concert. I felt bad for him and asked him if he wanted to go outside to dance but he said he was going to go back to his hotel room to go to sleep. His eyes were super red. He asked me if those were his gloves I was wearing and I said ummm no which they were but I wanted to keep them so I left.

Monday, September 21, 2015

videos 9/21/15

I was driving through a town and ran across a buckees bar/ gas station and I remembered going there before. All of a sudden I remembered living on the beach with my mom and her friend for months a long time ago.
I was watching a video on my phone that someone had taken at a house with me and a few friends. It was really creepy because we were doing evil witch crafty things. I was watching the video and I saw myself being recorded saying something that I would never say in real life and was wondering if I was black out drunk in the video. I kept rewinding it to watch myself saying something and I was so confused telling the person I was with that I would never say something like that in real life. I thought it must be a video that someone recorded and turned it into a movie later without telling anyone. I kept trying to remember the person who recorded the video. Then I was in a theater class in school watching a movie about an alternate version of snow white in a different language. There was a preview for the movie with a bunch of french girls in a city taking their clothes off in the street. I said wow they can get away with a lot more over there with media rules. I was in the movie and all of these creepy scenes were playing through. It was half black and white and the color was slowly starting to get painted in. I was sitting tied up on a mine shoot tunnel cart with someone else. It was like a disney ride with a bunch of wax figure scenes set up along the ride. We rode through different rooms of things going on. At some point the movie was over and I was looking for the second movie of that which was a cinderella black and white movie.